Gabbie
@GabbiXARC@meow.company hiiiii :D
★ i'm newgen but pretty cool (and smart and funny and cute and adorable) ★
★ get LOUD‼️‼️ ★ GET CRAZY‼️‼️ ★ loves raves (but hasnt been to one yet)★
★ 3DS FC: 4183-9047-9648, EN/FR, OG Homebrew dev. lovin tha shrimp!!!! ★
★ Mobile game enjoyer!! FGO, CRK, HSR, Unite, DGS ★
🪐🛰️ 𝔏𝔬𝔬𝔨𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔟𝔞𝔠𝔨 𝔲𝔭 𝔞𝔱 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔱𝔞𝔯𝔯𝔶 𝔰𝔨𝔶, 𝔤𝔞𝔷𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔪𝔶 𝔢𝔶𝔢𝔰 𝔬𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔦𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔭𝔩𝔞𝔫𝔢𝔱. 𝔄 𝔰𝔴𝔦𝔯𝔩𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔴𝔬𝔯𝔩𝔡 𝔬𝔣 𝔤𝔬𝔩𝔡𝔢𝔫 𝔥𝔲𝔢𝔰, 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔱𝔱𝔦𝔢𝔰𝔱 𝔭𝔲𝔭𝔭𝔶 𝔦𝔫 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔴𝔥𝔬𝔩𝔢 𝔰𝔬𝔩𝔞𝔯 𝔰𝔶𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔪, @Saturn_a 🛰️🪐
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Location
Sweeping up dusty corners in the back of your mind.
Pronouns
She / Her / It (EN), Elle / Elle (FR)
Romanticizing things that don't need to be.
Drugs and alcohol, for example. The mental image I have is that I could stop stressing about so much, and let go, if only temporarily, of the unending trail and blurbs of thoughts and processes that stream through my brain daily. Every minute of every day I am constantly thinking, talking, moving, acting and performing, in a sense, because it's just what I've learned and have had to do for as long as I can remember. The moments of silence are nice, but I am always anxious in the back of my mind to do something, stop being "lazy", even in my peace, I cannot sit still.
What I want and am envisioning these substances to do is just give me the ability to "let go." I want to be able to not be so tightly wound, take orders from others, and just do things without this terribly obnoxious sense of "pride" get in the way. Lose the perpetual angry face I've been told I have, stop looking so scary too, just a normal person for a night. Or day, anything works. Not die or anything, just, function less? I guess? I wouldn't mind just being a little dumbed down so I wouldn't have to worry about the things I usually do.
I'm romanticising it in my head because I'm used to always having to be in charge, sorting my own things out along with everyone else's. I know how people get when smoking, drinking, shooting or snorting, even, but I will never do those last two. It's just a way of relaxation I have never tried and have a very big interest in, and my mind has been warping it to make me like it more and more, but I know better than that. Half of how I feel comes from places of insecurity I'm sure, like that annoying "ego" I feel says things before I even get to think on what to say myself since I've had to feircly protect a lot of people and things in my life, so that old way of thinking kicks in and my mouth spits out what I would have said a long time ago to not get "dispresected." I don't really know how to get rid of that, so I personified it as Vegeta in my head. Unrelated, I know, but I feel like it makes sense to me in context.
Smoking seems the most interesting to me, because a lot of people I know do it and it's been used by a lot of people I have known, I just never trusted it due to how it was abused in the places I grew up like my parent's or freind's houses, or schools too. Trying It once would hopefully be the experience I'm hyping it up to be, but I think that genuinely just some anxiety and ADHD medication would help as well. it's also a gateway for me to be vulnerable, since I know that it's very hard for me but I don't know why. So, it could also be interpreted as an excuse to get closer to somebody I trust and show a side of me that personally, I don't even know what it's like. Everything is always jokes and deflection, because I don't really know how else to act. My past feels like a big sob story, and my present is looking up so far, so we're getting better at that.
What is the point of this post? I want to smoke and get stupid one day.
My service dog beats the fuck out of me
(two robot girls dating) problematic screen size difference
normalize turning your friends on for the bit
@Saturn_a heyyyyy doggy :3
We know you're gonna sleep soon, so rest up your pretty puppy head in your pretty puppy bed 💜
We've got plans for you...
Very good news on the first day of the 8th anniversary banner. Summoned a bit, got Tonelico and Jinako. Tonelico goes without saying as one of the best servants in the game, seeing as she's an Anniversary Servant. Jinako is just a big personal want of mine, since I've been liking her character since 2020. I got her on my long since dead JP, but not NA. Still debating on the GSSR.
got called back into work at 11AM after my 7-6 shift at the Hot AS Balls Factory™️ and they said it's for holiday pay but I just said fuck no wand walked back home. best part is get TO TAKE MY SHIRT OFF AGAIN YEAHHHH ITS STILL HOT AS HELL OUT HERE FUCK YOU BEZOS
Still thinking of who to decide on for the Destiny Order. Everyone is a pawsible contestant, but I'm still not convinced. Kukulkan???
{girl who loves taking her shirt off} GOD I LOVE taking my shirt off {me}
nous tenons à nous excuser sincèrement pour les œuvres d'art suivantes...
more people should invest in the super funny + stacked + hung + Great Taste In Music ™️®️ combo I'm surprised it's not a meta build rn?
devs r trying to patch this by making your equipment more expensive and constantly having to buy more armour to fit. kinda unfair, but it comes with the build i guess...
who doesn't love a big woman
{explicit implications.}
Very good news today. Ordered a stronger Estradiol, I'm going from a 0.06% gel pump to 2mg spray, twice a day. Not to be too revealing, but I already have a chest that's a little hard to hide as of now, and I'm just as excited to start my new doses as I am scared to find a bra that fits. I recently worked up the courage to order one, but it was many sizes too small. Minor setback of course, this path wasn't guaranteed to be easy. Still, very happy about how things are going.
Still really not sure how I'm supposed to be doing it "properly", per say, but in America I am just genuinely too scared to go look for a doctor IRL for cost and bias reasons, so I'll keep doing it myself for as long as I realistically can.
Got a new phone case, putting some 3D Sanrio stickers on it. Makes me feel more expressive and free, I guess? It's the little things like that, for me. Feels just that tiny bit better, you know? There's also a hole on the side for attachments, like keychains and things. I would really like to get some, but I have no idea what of. Maybe Sneasler? Weavile? I feel like the things I want are generic and bland, but on the other hand, it's for nobody but me, so why does it matter?
I'm usually the one supporting the people I know and advocating for their freedoms, but now that it's me doing it it's an entirely new feeling.
I am usually afraid of change, but it's needed and welcomed for the first time in a while.
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It should have been today.
Still debating on who I should get for the 8th Anniversary GSSR and Destiny Order summons. Ruler Skaði comes to mind first, seeing as she's a premium support, I haven't had many chances to summon for. Very good at general support with a 50% battery and Quick Card boosting. Ruler class lets her be a defensive powerhouse, too. Along with her good kit, her art is really pretty as well. Next up in my list would possibly be Summer Alter Okita Sōji, because she is a very, very powerful Quick AOE looper servant. I'm fine with not getting her at all on this, since I have a lot of very powerful Buster and Arts Servants in my Chaldea already. After them, it's Sesshōin Kiara just because I like her and her unique skill mechanic. Another Ruler, Karen, is up next from the Valentine's 2023 event, focused around her. No real reason other than thinking her design is cool, and a Quick Ruler is something I think I don't have.
There are some Servants that I'm looking forward to at the end of this year, and the beginning of the next. The upcoming events like Wandjina World Tour and SummerFes are looking appealing. By this time come the next Lotto event, I should be stacked on all materials.
bye bye readers mwah
My first ever Bond 15 Servant. Artotira Caster, Artoria Avalon, The Grand Caster of Avalon, Castoria, whatever you want to call her. The backbone of ALL modern-day Arts Looping team comps, the adorable ever-present support that rounds out almost any team and is a net positive on your account as a whole to have. Her unique (to Artorias, anyway, since we will receive her Summer form with the same ability in a week or so.) Anti-Enforcement Defence Skill is the most powerful and unremovable form of Defence in this game as a whole. I have had her on almost every single team I've made since she released in August of 2022. Three years of consistent numbers, protection, usefulness, and just being very well written too. She's the kind of unit you reroll your account for. When she dropped, the "Castoria Incident" happened, where so many people logged on at the same time to summon her, the servers crashed. No real reason for this entry other than I feel it's a personal achievement to get a Servant to B15 lol
have some art of her and Gudako (player character.)