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Very good news on the first day of the 8th anniversary banner. Summoned a bit, got Tonelico and Jinako. Tonelico goes without saying as one of the best servants in the game, seeing as she's an Anniversary Servant. Jinako is just a big personal want of mine, since I've been liking her character since 2020. I got her on my long since dead JP, but not NA. Still debating on the GSSR.
got called back into work at 11AM after my 7-6 shift at the Hot AS Balls Factory™️ and they said it's for holiday pay but I just said fuck no wand walked back home. best part is get TO TAKE MY SHIRT OFF AGAIN YEAHHHH ITS STILL HOT AS HELL OUT HERE FUCK YOU BEZOS
more people should invest in the super funny + stacked + hung + Great Taste In Music ™️®️ combo I'm surprised it's not a meta build rn? devs r trying to patch this by making your equipment more expensive and constantly having to buy more armour to fit. kinda unfair, but it comes with the build i guess...
Very good news today. Ordered a stronger Estradiol, I'm going from a 0.06% gel pump to 2mg spray, twice a day. Not to be too revealing, but I already have a chest that's a little hard to hide as of now, and I'm just as excited to start my new doses as I am scared to find a bra that fits. I recently worked up the courage to order one, but it was many sizes too small. Minor setback of course, this path wasn't guaranteed to be easy. Still, very happy about how things are going.
Still really not sure how I'm supposed to be doing it "properly", per say, but in America I am just genuinely too scared to go look for a doctor IRL for cost and bias reasons, so I'll keep doing it myself for as long as I realistically can.
Got a new phone case, putting some 3D Sanrio stickers on it. Makes me feel more expressive and free, I guess? It's the little things like that, for me. Feels just that tiny bit better, you know? There's also a hole on the side for attachments, like keychains and things. I would really like to get some, but I have no idea what of. Maybe Sneasler? Weavile? I feel like the things I want are generic and bland, but on the other hand, it's for nobody but me, so why does it matter? I'm usually the one supporting the people I know and advocating for their freedoms, but now that it's me doing it it's an entirely new feeling. I am usually afraid of change, but it's needed and welcomed for the first time in a while.
Still debating on who I should get for the 8th Anniversary GSSR and Destiny Order summons. Ruler Skaði comes to mind first, seeing as she's a premium support, I haven't had many chances to summon for. Very good at general support with a 50% battery and Quick Card boosting. Ruler class lets her be a defensive powerhouse, too. Along with her good kit, her art is really pretty as well. Next up in my list would possibly be Summer Alter Okita Sōji, because she is a very, very powerful Quick AOE looper servant. I'm fine with not getting her at all on this, since I have a lot of very powerful Buster and Arts Servants in my Chaldea already. After them, it's Sesshōin Kiara just because I like her and her unique skill mechanic. Another Ruler, Karen, is up next from the Valentine's 2023 event, focused around her. No real reason other than thinking her design is cool, and a Quick Ruler is something I think I don't have.
There are some Servants that I'm looking forward to at the end of this year, and the beginning of the next. The upcoming events like Wandjina World Tour and SummerFes are looking appealing. By this time come the next Lotto event, I should be stacked on all materials.
My first ever Bond 15 Servant. Artotira Caster, Artoria Avalon, The Grand Caster of Avalon, Castoria, whatever you want to call her. The backbone of ALL modern-day Arts Looping team comps, the adorable ever-present support that rounds out almost any team and is a net positive on your account as a whole to have. Her unique (to Artorias, anyway, since we will receive her Summer form with the same ability in a week or so.) Anti-Enforcement Defence Skill is the most powerful and unremovable form of Defence in this game as a whole. I have had her on almost every single team I've made since she released in August of 2022. Three years of consistent numbers, protection, usefulness, and just being very well written too. She's the kind of unit you reroll your account for. When she dropped, the "Castoria Incident" happened, where so many people logged on at the same time to summon her, the servers crashed. No real reason for this entry other than I feel it's a personal achievement to get a Servant to B15 lol
have some art of her and Gudako (player character.)
Getting more and more happy and hopeful as of late. Usually, would consider myself a pretty private person before last year, keeping everything to myself and just marching on in absolute agony, the teachings of my terrible family still fresh in my mind. "A man must protect", among many other traditional views that have been pushed on me my entire life, and I fully believed in. Decompiling those thoughts and understanding that truly, I am a woman, is finally starting to sink in. I'd say a huge help was the slight misunderstanding that led to a personal, meaningful name change. Formerly, I hated people calling me "Gabbie", since to me it felt way too intimate, like a personal boundary had been crossed, and wrong in a way. Why? I couldn't tell you in the slightest. But due to these amazing new freinds I've met, it's the default way to address me now. And I'm starting to do it in my own head, too. No questioning, somebody says the name and my heart skips a beat, and my ears perk up, even if it's something as mundane as saying hi. This transitioning stuff is no joke. I still have a very long path ahead of me, but I feel more prepared to walk it than I ever have before. Learning how to properly express and understand emotions in healthy ways, communicate and understand why I act the way I do as long as others, and generally doing some maturing that I hadn't known I'd needed at the time. I'm very thankful for this new crowd of freindly faces—endless kindness and acceptance. For the first time in a while, I can genuinely say that I am happy. 💜
My number one supporter, Saturn, has had my back for ages and I was too blind to see how dedicated she is until I was already chewed up and spit out by somebody else. And for that, my deepest, genuine, sincere apologies. I knew you were serious, but my insecurities at the time convinced me that you were out for yourself and I was just an easy and cheap form of happiness, and when I was lied to about you, I believed it. For that, too, I am sorry. It wasn't fair for me to do that when I had barely known anything. (This isn't to say anything bad happened with her, I am just not as forgiving of myself as she is to me.)
Writing in my own little corner is therapeutic, and I like doing it. I will try and keep this up for the next little while. It's like a giant load off my chest and lets me breathe easy.
Get yourself a good dog. It'll change your life. 💜
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