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Physical preference being seen as rude will never make sense to me. I've been thinking about it for a few days and it still bothers me a lot. People can walk up to me, touch me at their own will, and when i say "Don't touch me." and swipe their hands off of me, I'm the rude one? I get the weird look? I already hate when I get touched, let alone by strangers at a dirty workplace. Nasty behaviour.
@CaptAsh I just feel like I should have already done it, you know? It's hard to get through and I fear it's one of the things I just can't stomach. My own attempts end in failure, and I feel even worse that I'm letting people down. My representation of myself is so grand, the design is so specific and very much appealing, but then you hear the person behind it. Shatters the illusion and disappoints everyone.
I know the people I know respect it, including you, but in the back of my head it feels like pity.
Do people actually like transfems with deep voices? Personally, I have nothing against anybody with one but myself. It's embarrassing having to hear myself, but a blessing that my friends don't think I'm as annoying as I do. I've been trying to teach myself how to change it with voice training, but those tutorials are very difficult and don't make any sense to me. Trying them out loud puts pits in my stomach and holes in my head. It makes me feel an emotion I don't really know how to explain, other than immediate and dizzying.
Ive been told it's fine, but I really feel like I should have just taken it seriously years ago so it would be easier now. The past is 20/20, I suppose.
Ruri's Rocks is a beautiful show. There are only two episodes out now, but the first was full of really, really pretty shots. Watching it with Saturn, and it's very comforting to watch with a fellow rock enthusiast. Strangely very endearing, watching a show about a geologist in the making. I want to be one too!!!
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