@GabbiXARC I feel you're thinking too much, that you doubt people won't accept you as you are. You aren't letting people down.
in my eyes, voice training is a game of persistence, you gotta just sit with how grating it can be. I tried to learn how to sing, it's not the same but I absolutely see where you're coming from.
@GabbiXARC personally i really don't mind it!! but it's always best to go the route to get the results you feel the most comfortable with. This is about how you want to be presented first and foremost.
From what I know, voice training is really difficult and hard not to cringe at but if you want to sound different, you gotta power through it and I'm sure you'll get results that you're happy with.